MISS U A LOT

wonder how is HE rite now???
I M MISSING HIM SO MUCH...
tat day smsing HIM
BUT
HE din reply my sms...
FEELING SAD...
NON-STOP LOOKING AT THE PHONE
N
WAITING 4 HIS REPLY...

i have a lot of ques wanted 2 ask HIM...
*HOW R U NOW???
*HOW IS UR COMPETITION???
*WEATHER IS BCUMING HOT N HOT...
HAVE U TAKING CARE URSELF WELL????
*DID U SLP WELL???
N
*DO U MISS ME????

~U HAVE 2 TAKE CARE URSELF~
N
~I M MISSING U SO MUCH~

IAM BAK~~

finally i online d..
feel well nw..
iam very happy that she care me at all..
why she always thinking other thing..
i wont change again..

finally yesterday my new jersey come out d..
iam very happy that i can get a new jersey..
i will upload the pic soon..
hope that i can share with her..

nwdays alot thing happen..
i going 2 sick again too..
coz yesterday training too hot d..
and my competition match at afternoon too..
hope that day wont be hot like yesterday..

this few days my luck going down too..
hope that she can help me pray god o anything..
the most important thing is i need she gif me luck..

i bz this few days..
after my competition only jz will online again..
hope that she dun mind^^


TAKE CARE^^

~SAD~

HAIZ...
dunno wat happen...
is my wrong
o
his wrong???
i have no idea...
y he is so bad 2 me????
y he is away from me??
feel so sad...

~ SICK LE ~

yesterday I oni noe HE sick jor le...
so many days no on9...
is just bcos HE was sick..
these few days I M MISSING HIM SO MUCH...
wonder if HE is de same 2..

HE told me HE din go c doc..
BUT Y??
TIS MAKE ME MORE WORRRY...
since he is sick..

I M D ONI 1 HU WRITING TIS BLOG ALONE...
HOPE HE LL WELL SOON..
N
COMPANY ME 2 WRITE TIS BLOG 2GETHER AGAIN...

LIFE IS SHORT

2day i read de newspaper(entertainment section)....
is written about a death of a singer(ah san)
tis singer died is bcos of breast cancer..
she knew she has tis disease since last yr oct...
however..
she oso canot managed 2 survived n died..
she was oni 34 yrs old...
eventually
she has planned 2 married tis yr n ll live vit her husband in america..
BUT
bcos of tis disease cos her died in d early age
n
canot managed 2 married vit her dearest 1...


wen i read tis new...
i feel shocked n sad....
feel so pity on her...
bcos she died wen she was oni 34
n
she canot married 2 her beloved...
tis make me realise
live is short
n
unpredictable....
v have 2 appreciate n love every1 beside us b4 it is 2 late


suddenly i tink bout HIM...
i m SCARED...
i dunno y I HAVE A SUDDEN TAT I CAN FEEL I LL LOST HIM...
many ppl beside me told me long distance relationship canot maintain so long
+
v nvr c each other b4 oni through cam...
SURE VERY FAST BREAK...

BUT
I DUN WAN...
BUT
I OSO WORRIED WAT TER SAY LL BCUM TRUE...
I REALI APPRECIATE N LOVE HIM...
BUT
HOW BOUT HIM???

I M NOT LONGER IMPORTANT 2 HIM..

nowdays i feel like ter is a distance btw 2 of us.....
dunno y..
mayb i tink a lot gua...
mayb my fren is rite..
long distance de relationship canot maintain very long de...
haiz
so sad....
dunno y...
i feel like he got a lot of secret n dun wan tell me..
mayb he nvr treat me as HIS gf gua..
tat is y HE dun wan tel me everyting...

2day HE told me yesterday HE sms vit a gal...
i noe
sms vit a gal is very normal de ting lai de...
BUT
i dunno y..
i dun like....
HE prefer sms vit tat GAL..
oso DUN WAN SMS VIT ME..
HE told me tat sms vit me very expensive de..
IF HE REALI LIKES ME..
Y HE WANTS 2 K BOUT DE MONEY NEH???
haiz...
i reali very scare he got another gf at malacca..
'HE says HE oni ll like ME..
BUT
I CAN FEEL TAT HE IS NOT SINCERE...
HOW CUM????
HE so URGENTLY off9 without asking me 2 give HIM a kiss
o
saying I LOVE U 2 HIM...
if HE reali feel tat i m important..
HE sure ll ask me 2 KISS o SAY I LOVE U..
oni HE ll savely off...
but
YYY??
HE DIN ASK DE??
ISIT I M NOT IMPORTANT 2 HIM ANYMORE??
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY
N
WEIRD...